What’s going on with me

So with all the BS about donors I completely forgot to give an update about me. I went to my GYN 2 weeks ago. Actually I saw a CNM in the same practice I used to go to the last time I lived here. I love her! She was very nice and understanding. We talked about my PCOS and how we have been TTC with R’s womb. R and I have discussed TTC with my body, but were always hesitant. I have PCOS and am overweight. I shared these concerns with my midwife and she does not think I will have a problem conceiving as long as I prepare my body beforehand. She did stress that the PCOS will make things more difficult, but did not think that it was impossible for me to conceive. She and I have laid out a one year plan. I have one year to lose weight and prepare my body. She got me set up with a nutritionist and convinced my insurance company to pay for it since I have PCOS. She ran a ton of blood work; I felt like a pincushion. She checked hormone levels (LH:FSH ratio, total testosterone, DHEAS, SHBG, androstenedione, and prolactin), liver enzymes and function, thyroid, blood sugar, and cholesterol. She also prescribed pr0metrium and metf0rmin, The pr0metrium should get me menstruating again. I was on pr0vera every other month but I ran out of refills and my old Dr. in PA would not call in a refill without a physical. Since I had no insurance that made things a bit difficult. The midwife was horrified to learn that I had not had a period since February. Funny story about that later… The liver function and enzyme tests were because of the met. As long as that comes back within range I can start the met. It should help me ovulate. She is ramping up my dosage. 500mg once a day for a week then increasing to 500mg in the morning and 500mg at night for a week and then 500mg in the morning and 1000mg at night. If I can stand that for a month she will go up to 1000mg in the morning and another 1000mg at night. Her thought is that if we can get me ovulating within 12 months without something like Cl0mid it would be better. I think the statistic was that Cl0mid only works on 40% of people with PCOS or something like that.

So far I have already lost 4 pounds. I am embarrassed to say how many more I have to go. It really is just a drop on the bucket.

So the funny story about not having a period since February. The nurse brought me into the exam room and was taking my temp, blood pressure, and a brief history. She asked me when my last period was and I told her that I thought it was in February. She looked shocked and asked me if I was pregnant. I told her no and she asked me if I was sure. I told her there was no chance that I was pregnant, that I was in a monogamous relationship with a woman. She said that there always a chance and asked me again if I was sure. I said yes. She asked me if I had taken an HPT. I finally responded, “I have not had sex with a man since 1998. Have you ever heard of a 9 year gestation?” I have never seen a woman blush so fast. She fumbled with my blood pressure cuff, said it wasn’t working and that she would have to go get another one and left. She never came back. I don’t know if she was embarrassed or scared, but I don’t think she will be so adamant that a woman could be pregnant ever again.

Tentatively Excited

We may have found a new donor. R and I went through all the men in our lives. We decided that there was just one man, J, that we trusted enough to be our donor. He is closer to me that he is to R so I decided that I would approach him. We went on a camping trip this weekend with a large group of people. When I got there I let J know that I would like some time to talk to him in private at some point. We finally got to talk last night. He never even let me get the question out. He asked what I wanted to talk about and I told him I had a very important and difficult question to ask him. He cut me off and said, “I will have to ask S (his wife)”. I was very happy that he made what could have been a very awkward conversation so easy. He would like for the four of us (R, me, J, and S) to meet to discuss the logistics and get everything out in the open. He just wants to make sure that S is OK with it first. They were TTC for a while and I know S had a miscarriage about a year ago. I hope that doesn’t influence her decision.

That is the good news, but of course there is a catch. J lives in the town we just moved from. He is almost 500 miles away. We made it work with a donor 500 miles away for the past year and are not thrilled that we may be in for more late night drives. Now that I am working we can only hope for Monday ovulations so we can insem on the weekends.

I will probably be seeing J in 2 weeks. I hope that he has had a chance to talk to S by then and we may be on the road again with a new donor in the next few months!

We know that this may also fall through and are still looking into banks. Thanks to all who responded with their recommendations.

Fuck fuck fuckity fuck

So our donor called me this evening. He said that he didn’t feel comfortable donating for us anymore. He said that he really hoped that it didn’t work last month and wanted to talk to us then but didn’t want to back out at the last minute. That he didn’t think it would take so long. That it was starting to feel weird and someday he wanted to have a family of his own. What does that mean? We always said that if he didn’t want to continue helping us he could stop. We never thought that he would. If you remember he was the one that came to us a few years ago and said that if we ever wanted to have kids he would be willing to donate. So now, on day 5 of Cl0mid, we don’t have the other 26 chromosomes. I sobbed for a while. R said she knew it was too good to be true. Now we have to pick out a donor.

Know any good spεrm banks?

The Plan this Month

So we have a wedding in PA to attend this weekend. It may interfere with our plans this month, but we hope it won’t. R started Cl0mid on Saturday and will finish on Wednesday. We will stop by our donor’s house on our way home from PA Sunday night and insem. We will also go to see him Monday after work and, if R hasn’t ovulated by Tuesday we will try again Tuesday evening. Of course this all depends on the OPKs and temps.

CD 1 again

AF is here! We are ready to start another cycle. We plan on increasing the number if insems this month to 3. We think our timing might have been off this time. Here’s hoping for a good cycle.

CD 32

Why is it that AF is late every time we insem? It is really quite annoying. Has anyone out there had unusually long cycles when taking Cl0mid?

Bring on the flo so we can plan another insem.