Job Update

I will most likely be losing my job. I have been working for the same company for just under 8 years. A few years ago I decided to go to college. I went to school part time while working full time for several years, taking one or two classes each semester. Two years ago I started going to school full time & I dropped down to part time at work. This academic year is my last year of undergrad. I only needed 4 classes, one seminar and two credits of research to graduate so I started back at work full time this summer & planned on taking two classes and one research credit each semester. When I was promoted to my current full time position last summer they KNEW that I was a college student & that I would be going to school and would not have open availability. It was fine last semester and all of a sudden there’s a problem. To make matter worse my position was eliminated and the new position that is replacing it requires open availability, which I don’t have. My boss actually told me that if I wanted to keep my job I needed to drop out of school. I have been at this way too long to stop now, then end is in sight! I only have two classes, one seminar and one credit of research left. I feel really selfish but I have put my job before school many times over the past few years. There were a few semesters that I withdrew from school completely, even if I lost my tuition, because they needed more help at work. My boss is trying to pull strings to I can be full time split between two locations with the same pay rate, but it doesn’t look good.

The Good:

• They will give me two weeks notice before they lay me off.
• I can take the Latin class that I was really interested in but couldn’t take because I needed to work on Thursdays.
• They won’t fight fight my unemployment so I will have some cash flow until I can find another job.
• They will put me in as eligible for rehire if I want to go back after graduation (ha!).
• I will have more free time since this semester will be the most difficult semester I’ve ever had.
• More time to visit graduate schools and focus on applications.
• I can get a part time job on campus, which, when combined with my unemployment, will bring in almost what I’m used to making.
• Weekends off for the first time in my life so I can drive up and down the east coast to go visit our donor.

The Bad:

• NO job.
• No free movie rentals.
• Accepting handouts from the government.
• No time to start job hunting because the semester starts Tuesday.

Can you tell I’m trying to convince myself that this isn’t an absolutely terrible thing?

Looking Ahead

We’ve started discussing our TTC plan of attack for 2007. We haven’t been actively trying every month. We haven’t given up hope on this cycle, but with three peoples schedules to work around we decided to start planning for next cycle. We’ve decided that we will try every month until it happens, no taking months off (in case we really need it emotionally). We’ve requested off work for each anticipated weekend through June. Thank G-d R usually ovulates on the weekend. Our donor has scheduled classes so he has a long weekend every week so we will alternate visiting him and him coming up here each month.
If we still aren’t pregnant in June we’ll start thinking about IUI in a doctor’s office with or without meds. I guess we’ll have to get our donor tested and find a doctor that will work with us. A lesbian couple we know were TTC a few years ago (they have since broken up, guess there was a reason they never succeeded) and they weren’t able to find a doctor within 40 miles of our ultra conservative county that was willing to help them. Luckily Baltimore & Philadelphia are close enough to drive for appointments if needed. Our doctor & midwife have no problems helping us once R is pregnant but they won’t do IUIs on any couple that is not married, no matter what their sexual orientation. They’re the only local doctor that accepts our insurance. We really need to get out of here.

Still Waiting

We’re still waiting, no AF and no positive HPT. We’re going nuts! R has never been late, not in the 8 1/2 years we’ve been together. She had open heart surgery a few years ago and that didn’t even affect her cycle. Lots of other symptoms but we’re not sure if we’re noticing them just because we want to. R spotted late yesterday, just a bit of brown blood on the TP (mixed with tons of watery CM, another phenomenon that has been around for 3 days now) when she was wiping, nothing on her underwear. No sign of it since. If this keeps up she’s going to go to the doctor on Tuesday. Damn the long weekend!