Negative

I’m not testing again until Monday and you can’t make me!

Today is the one year anniversary of our CA wedding and the 11 year anniversary of the day we met. We’re off to the zoo and then we’re going out to dinner. Tomorrow is filled with wedding preparations for my step-sister’s wedding next weekend (dress fittings, shopping, program assembly, etc) and we’re spending Sunday with our potential known donor. Hopefully that’s enough to take my mind off of it.

Is it Friday yet?

I’m looking forward to Friday for several reasons. Like many CA Limited Edition married same sex couples, we are celebrating our first wedding anniversary this summer. Ours is Friday. It’s also the 11th anniversary of the day we met. We both took the day off from work. We have plans to go to the zoo and then a nice dinner. It’s 12dpo and I’m not allowing myself to test until Friday.

I’m trying to explain away all symptons so I don’t get disappointed when I see red (and I’m convinced that I WILL see red). I’ve been gagging and had dry heaves at work for the past few days but I work in a stinky place and smell has brought it on every time. I’ve been tired after work and yesterday I had to nap but I have given up my morning coffee. I’ve been using the bathroom more and wake up 2 hours before my alarm to go pee but I’ve been drinking more water since I gave up coffee. The ladies I can’t really explain away. They’re still showing all 4 Hs and have a new symptom that seems odd to me. My n!ps seem to have grown. I didn’t notice it ay first, R did. Now I notice that they’re at attention all the time which I think is why they seem larger. I used to be able to get away with cotton bras but now you can see everything and I have to wear the more padded and supportive but far less comfortable underwire torture devices.

It seems way to soon to have any symptoms. I have such little faith in my body that I’m convinced it didn’t work and am just waiting for red. Every cramp and every feeling of dampness has me running to the bathroom certain that I will see red.

R just knows I’m kn0cked up. I have mixed emotions about this. For a while I thought she had changed her mind about having kids because everytime I suggested we start trying again she had an excuse why she didn’t want to just yet. So I’m glad to see her so excited at the prospect of it all. On the other hand I’m worried that she will take it very hard when I’m not.

I’m trying to not be such a big ball of negativity but apparently that’s my coping mechanism for the latter portion of the wait. Is it Friday yet?

Work Stinks!

I still love my job but my work stinks, literally. I work for a v!tamin company. My lab is adjacent to the micro lab where the vitamins are liquified and incubated to test for microbial growth. The stench of wet hot vitamins has run me out of the lab dry heaving twice today. If it’s this bad now I can’t imagine how it will be if I ever get knocked up. Unfortunately I don’t have a place to retreat to. My desk is in the lab.

Does She Know Something?

We had a wonderful day yesterday with my family. We hung out on the boat and then swam around the dock once we came in. We had a wonderful meal and watched some of the best illegal fireworks I’ve ever seen.

The first thing my sister (who does know we own sp erm but doesn’t know we’re actively trying) asked me when I took off my shirt to reveal the new and improved hard as rocks ladies that were fighting to get out of my bathing suit was “Are you pregnant!?!” Since the ENTIRE family and half the neighborhood were on the dock and anxiously awaiting my response I brushed it off and said “You never know.”  Then she tapped me on the chest (not something unusual in our odd relationship) and said “Oh my God, they’re hard!”

4H

The ladies are experiencing the 4 Hs today.
Hard
They are hard as rocks! This leads to…
Hurt
They hurt so bad this morning that it woke me up. I’m a belly sleeper and the ladies did NOT like being flattened. Let’s not even talk about the pain I experienced when the water hit my poor n!pp|es in the shower. Huge
When I was getting dressed I had to grab a larger bra because I had b0.0b muffin tops. That may have something to do with… High
I would never call my ladies perky. They lost that moniker in 7th grade when I graduated to a D D. There’s no way to call E cups perky but they are higher than normal.

I’ve had the 4 Hs before but not this bad. The 4 Hs after 400mg of Pr0.metrium doesn’t even come close to what I’m experiencing today. Could this be late blooming side effects from the tr!gger? I’m not saying anything or thinking anything positive at this point. Just bitching and wanted to share my pain.

Home Sick

I left work early today. I’m sick. I’ve had a low-grade fever since Sunday morning. It was over 101 Saturday night but since then has been hovering just below 100. I have a sore throat, headache, general stuffiness and no energy. I don’t normally leave work unless I’m really really sick but I had a lot of technical writing to do today and I couldn’t concentrate enough to form well thought out sentences; words were just on the tip of my tongue, things weren’t making sense when I reread them, equation editor was out to get me, etc.

I hope this doesn’t kill my chances of getting knocked up.

And Now We Wait

We insemmed last night. I woke up in the middle of the night with a fever. I don’t know if it was related at all. We were both sick Friday night so it may have been a remanant of that. I’m pretty sure I ovulated this morning and I’ve been crampy all afternoon.

Our past waits have been overshadowed by a vacation, a death in the family, graduation, and a move and all went by very quickly. We have nothing to distract us during this one so I expect it to be excruciating.

Triggered

I gave myself the shot last night. It didn’t hurt until this morning. I was told it was a subcutaneous injection and the powdered medicine that I had to mix said intramuscular. I hope that’s OK and doesn’t cause a problem. My os was slightly open last night, a bit more open this afternoon. We’re going to check it again tonight and, based on what we see, inseminate tonight or in the morning.

E 2 and Timing

My E 2 was 231pg/mL. Tr!gger tomorrow night. They suggested insem 30 hours post injection with frozen. Does that sound right? Anyone have convincing arguments for different timing?

The Man in a Can is on the truck for delivery. Hopefully he will be there to greet me when I get home from work.

We Have Progress

Right ovary: 8 7-9mm follicles
Left ovary: 4 7-9mm follicles and 1 18mm follicle
I should have my E 2 level after lunch and be given time for trigger but the nurse guessed tomorrow night.

I know the little ones are useless but at least I have one! I was so scared I was going to go in and be told that nothing was happening. I haven’t really had any side effects. My skin’s broken out but that can be explained by a bad wax job that I got in CA and my nether region has been itchy but that’s to be expected as I’ve recently had a haircut I was concerned that if I wasn’t a bitch then nothing was happening.